Oh you know, just me going on about shit. ♥

Well, today kind of sucked. I didn't do much.. first thing this morning I get yelled at though for not getting out of bed, but only because I didn't get any sleep last night.. just like always..

I can never sleep unless I have Nicky next to me, holding me. You see, like last night (when he was here) I actually fell asleep and when I woke up he was right there next to me.. why can't it always be like that? I just want to fall asleep in you're arms, so I know I'm safe and nothing could ever hurt me, because I know you wouldn't let anything ever hurt me and then to be able to wake up next to you and see you're amazing smile, every morning.. why can't it just be like that?

Ugh, I hate the fact that ages matters when it comes to everything!

Anyways, back to what I did today, uh nothing... well I cleaned my room and rearrange it all.. again.. but only to get my mind of you.. which didn't help.. at all.

But um, yesterday was fun though. Me and Nicky hung out for awhile, not till like five or six I think it was because he was at the Saints Game, which by the way sucked.. anyways, we just hung out in my room for a bit with my little sister Mady, who was acting like a dog and wouldn't stop licking us, then she decided to chase my gerbil, Bubbles around while screaming.. but then we went on a walk and was talking and then we saw a new house that was just built in my neighborhood, and then Nicky grabbed the paper out of the information tube and we were talking about how perfect it was, and it really was.. it was like my dream house.
3 Bedrooms, and a office/bedroom, I think it was 3 Bathrooms, the master bedroom is huge, so is that closet and the bathroom, and the bedroom next to the master bedroom is perfect for Hailie..

I don't think I've told you who Hailie was just yet.. Well as you know, my boyfriend, Nicky Sisco.. we've been dating for six months and we're super fucking close already.. we've been talking for awhile now about our future and stuff, and Hailie is the name we want our little girl to be named. Hailie Marie Sisco, that is. We talk about her a lot and when we saw that house we thought it was perfect for the little family we want.. Anyways, back to the house..

The kitchen just sounds beautiful, and it has a island in the middle of it and that's like something I've always wanted my house to have and it has a huge fucking pantry, which is amazing. The laundry room looks pretty big which is a good thing. It was just the perfect looking house. Even though I've only seen it's outside but still, you know that feeling when you see something and you feel like you were meant to be with that something or that something was meant for you, and you feel like you have some special connection just by looking at it? That's how I feel with that damn house, and that's also the way I felt about Nicky.. the first time I looked at Nicky I felt that he could be something special in my life and look whats happened there so far. (:

Anyways, it's getting late and speaking of Nicky I'm hanging out with him in the morning so I think I'm going to hit the sack. Even though I'm not going to be able to sleep without you.
I'll keep you posted on what goes on tomorrow, even though I'm pretty sure no one reads this what so ever. I love writing stuff. ♥


But till then; Sweet dreams & sleep tight to all. Goodnight loves. (:
I love You Nicky Sisco -forever&always♥-