Good mood goes bad?

So, hey there.. I feel like making a post. :)

Hmm, what to post about, what to post about?

Well how are you? I'm pretty good. I'm actually in a good mood today, which is kind of strange seeing how it's that time of the month for me, lol. That'll probably change later.. I'm always in a good mood and then it goes bad.. and it sucks for anyone whos around me.. >.>

Well, I got some sleep last night. Only because one one reason, I kind of got tired of not being able to sleep because of (like I said before, Nicky's not there) and another reason is that I have Insomnia (lack of sleep) and I have to take pills and I haven't really been taking them so I decided to take them last night and I pasted out but I just hate taking them..

Anyways, me and Nicky might hang out today. That is, if he gets off his lazy ass and stops playing video games and finds out if he caaan! (: I love you baby.

Anyways, I'll probably go on and on about more stuff later, like always....

EVEN THOUGH; nobody reads this... (broken heart) So buh byeee for now. Love you all. (nobody) (:



I love you Nicky Sisco
-forever&always♥-

Oh you know, just me going on about shit. ♥

Well, today kind of sucked. I didn't do much.. first thing this morning I get yelled at though for not getting out of bed, but only because I didn't get any sleep last night.. just like always..

I can never sleep unless I have Nicky next to me, holding me. You see, like last night (when he was here) I actually fell asleep and when I woke up he was right there next to me.. why can't it always be like that? I just want to fall asleep in you're arms, so I know I'm safe and nothing could ever hurt me, because I know you wouldn't let anything ever hurt me and then to be able to wake up next to you and see you're amazing smile, every morning.. why can't it just be like that?

Ugh, I hate the fact that ages matters when it comes to everything!

Anyways, back to what I did today, uh nothing... well I cleaned my room and rearrange it all.. again.. but only to get my mind of you.. which didn't help.. at all.

But um, yesterday was fun though. Me and Nicky hung out for awhile, not till like five or six I think it was because he was at the Saints Game, which by the way sucked.. anyways, we just hung out in my room for a bit with my little sister Mady, who was acting like a dog and wouldn't stop licking us, then she decided to chase my gerbil, Bubbles around while screaming.. but then we went on a walk and was talking and then we saw a new house that was just built in my neighborhood, and then Nicky grabbed the paper out of the information tube and we were talking about how perfect it was, and it really was.. it was like my dream house.
3 Bedrooms, and a office/bedroom, I think it was 3 Bathrooms, the master bedroom is huge, so is that closet and the bathroom, and the bedroom next to the master bedroom is perfect for Hailie..

I don't think I've told you who Hailie was just yet.. Well as you know, my boyfriend, Nicky Sisco.. we've been dating for six months and we're super fucking close already.. we've been talking for awhile now about our future and stuff, and Hailie is the name we want our little girl to be named. Hailie Marie Sisco, that is. We talk about her a lot and when we saw that house we thought it was perfect for the little family we want.. Anyways, back to the house..

The kitchen just sounds beautiful, and it has a island in the middle of it and that's like something I've always wanted my house to have and it has a huge fucking pantry, which is amazing. The laundry room looks pretty big which is a good thing. It was just the perfect looking house. Even though I've only seen it's outside but still, you know that feeling when you see something and you feel like you were meant to be with that something or that something was meant for you, and you feel like you have some special connection just by looking at it? That's how I feel with that damn house, and that's also the way I felt about Nicky.. the first time I looked at Nicky I felt that he could be something special in my life and look whats happened there so far. (:

Anyways, it's getting late and speaking of Nicky I'm hanging out with him in the morning so I think I'm going to hit the sack. Even though I'm not going to be able to sleep without you.
I'll keep you posted on what goes on tomorrow, even though I'm pretty sure no one reads this what so ever. I love writing stuff. ♥


But till then; Sweet dreams & sleep tight to all. Goodnight loves. (:
I love You Nicky Sisco -forever&always♥-

Wow.. I suck ;D

So, I know no one reads this but I kind of suck at this whole blog thingg. I should start posting more things I guess. Even though I have no readers, haha. I'll try keeping up with this thing. (:

I'm Sorry..

Okay, Nicky.. Look.. I'm sorry for last night it was all my fault. I wasn't fucking thinking about anything I said before I said it and because of that we got in a fight last night. That dream I had means nothing to me. I didn't have that dream because I wanted to babe. I understand it made you upset but it didn't happen in real life and it never will. Because I'm only staying with you forever, I don't want to be with anyone else ever.. it just makes me sick thinking about being with someone else.. Last night you said to me "Would a promise even matter if you were going to dump me anyways?" It breaks my heart when you say you think I'm going to break up with you. I mean after everything I've said to you since we've been dating? Everything we've been through? Nicky, I'm not just you're girlfriend anymore.. You have to remember you did ask me to marry you and I remember saying yes, you know why I said yes? Because I love you and you mean everything to me, you're my whole world and you mean even more then that to me.. Without I'm nothing. You're my everything and I love everything about you, ever since the first day I met you. You were an amazing friend, and now look.. I'm engaged to you. (:
Look I love you more then I love anything or anyone else in this whole world.. The love I have for you is stronger then anything in this universe. I wish I could explain my love for you but I can't that's how deep my love is for you.. If I could just prove to you somehow how much I love you.. I wish I could, I really do..
What I'm trying to say is no matter what people say or try to do, or whatever happens to make us fight or weather you think I'm going to break up with you or whatever you're thinking and whatever I'm thinking. Everything will be fine. It always is, you know why everything always works out for us? Because I love you and you love me.. And together we always get through everything that's been going on between us. It's because we really do love eachother. (:
And if we didn't we wouldn't be together and we would have broken up our first fight..
I know we haven't been together long, but it's almost 5 months and I think that's enough for me to realize that you're the one for me. And you're the one I'm spending the rest of my life with. (:
I hope I get to see you today, I would keep writing but the rest I'll say to you when we hang out.
And I have an idea and I'm going to ask my mom if she can take me to the store.
I wanna get you something. :3
So I'll let you sleep and I'll call you later baby.
Just remember that I love you, and I mean it.. It's not just puppy love. It's true love..
I love you, Nicky. I really do and I always will.
Forever&Always. <3
I'm yours. (:

Yay [:

Okay, so I was excited to wake up this morning so I could write on my Blog pageee. :3 I think this is something I could start doing more. Haha. What do y'all think of my page? Maybe if I love you I might make a post about you. Anyways, I'm thinking about making a post about my best friends and stuff, so I'll keep you posted on that. Tellll mee what y'all think. ♥


Thanks.
I love youuuu. [:

Sisters, Animals & boyfriends. [:

Okay, so it's 10:54 am and I am so fucking tired. My mom was like screaming at me to wake up this morning, so then I was like "I should probably get up before I get grounded." so then I got up, but now her and my sister Sydney went to the store so now I'm babysitting my littlest sister, Mady. She's three, her birthday is in a couple weeks so wish her a happy birthday! [:
Sydney, the middle child, haha. She has a quite interesting birthday you could say, her birthdays next month.. Okay, so she was born uh, either a week or two early, so she was super tiny.. She was born midnight, on Friday the 13th in October, the month of Halloween as we all know.. Oh and she has red hair, and her favorite movie is Chucky.. Is it just me or do you guys find that kinda scary? Haha. I guess now we know why she's so evil. >.> lol
So as I'm sitting here watching Astro Boy with my sister.. (Ugh, I hate this show.) my dog won't stop barking.. I swear he barks at nothing sometimes. If it's not nothing then it's the birds. He's so stupid. We've had him for awhile now, I believe he's either 7 or 8.. Anyways, we got him when I was a little girl and when he was just a tiny puppy, one of my dads friends gave him to us and ever since then he's been a HUGE pain in the ass, kinda like my boyfriend.. :3 haha, jk. I love you Nicky! Anywho, his name is Bo, btw. He's a black lab and he hates other dogs, lol. Well he hates all other dogs but he gets along with my dog, Maggie. Which I find weird because like he really hates all other dogs.
Anyways, enough about Bo.. How about Maggie? Well Maggie is a dog that we rescued from going to the pound. One day my moms friend was bringing her little girls over so we could babysit them while she took Maggie to the pound.. and when everyone got out of the car my mom saw Maggie jump up on the window and she just couldn't let her take her to the pound. So then Maggie was my early birthday present. [:
She's some kind of mut mix, I think she has a little bit of Beagle in her, but were all not sure what else she has in her. She's also like 13 or 14.. /: so she might not be around much longer but I sure hope, I love that dog. Even if she eats all the cat food, begs at the table and shits on the floor when it's thundering. <3 haha.
Yeah, she's afraid of thunder storms, and she eats all my moms, cats food. I guess that would explain why she so fucking fat, haha. And she HORRIBLE when it comes to someone cooking in the kitchen or someone eating at the table.. You have to yell at her to go lay down like a million times, it's so annoying.
Now our cats! We have three, two are inside and mines the outside cat. Sassy, Dread, and Honey. Honey's my cat, she's a calico cat. I'm guessing she lost her owners in Hurricane Katrina.. /:
She's been in this neighborhood ever since we moved here four years ago. I'm not sure how old she is, but she looks pretty young. But I kinda took her in and now she lives in our treehouse I think, haha. (:
And Sassy, is my moms inside cat, my mom saved Sassy. When she had found her she had been in a trash can, and she was super skinny my mom says she had all kinds of holes in her ears from other cats and bugs, so my mom took her and now if you hear that story then look a Sassy you'd be like "Woah, that's the cat you were talking about, I honestly would have never guessed." haha, and that's because now she's one big fat happy cat, when I say fat I mean really fat.
Oh and my mom found Sassy when she was pregnant with me, and we've had that cat ever since then and now I'm 14 which makes that cat like 16 or 17.
Now Dread, my moms other inside cat. One day my dad and I were in the car, he was taking me to school and he was going to work, we were driving down our dirt road, because I grew up in Texas we had a little bit of land so we had a long dirt road that lead back to my favorite house, but that's a whole other story. Anyways, we were driving and we saw a bunch of kittens in a cat kennel, so we stopped and went back home and my mom fell in love with that one little kitty and decided to keep that little gray kitty cat and we found the rest good homes. [: now all of our kitty's our saved, happy and fat.. <3
And we have a fish and a gerbil, the fishes name is Mrs. Cuddle Fish, and my gerbils name is Bubbles. <3



Okay now that you know about my pets and sisters. What else do you wanna know?
Well, I'll write more about my life and growing up and stuff but for now I'm going to go call my boyfriend so we can hang out. (:
Boy do I love him.
He is the most amazing, most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me!
He's just amazing and awesome and everything I could have asked for, he's more then I could have asked for, and I hope we stay together forever. :3
I have a whole other story to tell you about us and what we've planned! (:
Heheee. :3
Anyways I have lots more blogs coming so give me time to write them when I get the chance and I will keep you updated on all kinds of stuff! <3
Thank you for readinggg.
Leave me a comment if you want, I love readingg comments, haha.
Alrighty, for now I'm off, I'll be back later.
Buhhh bye guys. <3
I love youuuu.


- AudreeySisco. [:

Darkness.

So I was just looking at some old stuff in one of my folders here on my laptop and I found the amazing story my boyfriend wrote me, it's actually really amazing. He is such a good writer, I wish he'd think so, but anyways I thought you might like to read it so here it is. [:
Enjoy! <3

Before you read it though, this is a dream he had about us walking in the cemetery at midnight. And he says it was a cool, descriptive dream so he decided to put it in Words for you guys.
Okay, now enjoy!

Tell me what you think, pleaseee. [:



"Darkness (A Story Based On A Dream)
By: Nicky Awesome Sisco.


The Cold Midnight Air Whistled Against the Old Yellow Buildings Peeling Coat Of Paint, The Howls Of Cold Hungry Dogs That Were Left Outside For The Night Are Heard. The Only Things That Are Silent Are Us, We Hold Our Breath. Should We Go in? I Take A Chance And Kneel Down To Get Through The Large Hole In The Gate. I Look Back As You Stand, Timidly Staring At The Moon, The Stars, And All Beautiful Things. They Reflect Into Your Eyes And Your Godess Like Loveliness Shows. You Blink And Look At Me. I Hold Out My Hand, And Slowly Your Shivering Palm Takes Mine. You Get Down And Go Through The Gate. Were In This Together now. We Stand Up Together And I let Go Of Your Hand To Walk, However Your Grasp Is Steady. I look Back And You Still Haven't Moved.
The Wind Now Wisping your Hair. I Try And Ease You Into The Yard Of Worthless Bones And Coffins. You Give Me A Trusting Look, And You Ask If I'm Sure Its Safe To Walk In A Graveyard At Night. I Just Give You A Warm Smile And Pull You Closer To Me. Once Again The Nights Sky Gives Us Warnings And Blows A Final Wind Upon The Grave House We Stand Near, It Whistles And A Cat Yells, It Darts Out From Under The House Along With Another. They Run Of Into the Distance And There Cries Of Battle Fade. I Continue To Walk With You By My Side. I'm Not Scared, I'm not Scared, I'm not Scared... Im Horrified.
We Pass The Old Grave House And To The Main Road Of The Cemetery. The Road Goes on in Foor Directions, Crossing In The Middle Were We Stand. You Ask If We Can Leave, You Don't Like It. We Both Feel Something. The Feeling That Something Is About To happen, And that Something Already Knows Were Here. Its Just Waiting. And Slowly Creeping Towards Us. Then As If Everything Stopped Making Noise, Everything Stopped Except For A Slow Droning Hum. A Lady then Emerges From The Farrest Corner Of the Yard, She Is Far Away, but We Both See Her, She Stops In The Middle Of the Road About Ten Feet Away. Looking At The Ground. Shes Carrying A Small Child, She Then Turns Her Head Towards Us. You Want To Run, So Do I. At this Point, That Could Only Make This Worse. The Ladies Eyes Are Closed. When She Opens Them unsead Of Eyes, Dull Lights Shine At Us. You Gasp And Grab My Arm.
The Lady Approaches Us. She Is Only Wearing Rags. Torn up Old Rags. And her Hair Is Un Brushed And Black As Night. Her Skin Has A Worm On It. And In Parts You Can See Her Dried Up Old Bone. The Ladies Arms Were Torn Up As If She Was Whipped And A Large Bloody Gash Was In One Side Of her Upper Leg. You Stand Behind Me, And A Warm Feeling Is On My Neck. A Tear, Another Is Felt Shortly After. Your Sure Were not Going To See The Sun, And Im Sure That This Lady Wont Either, And She Hasn't.. For Years.
The Lady Blinks And Looks Down At Me. And Nods. As If To Say. It Is Not Our Time Yet.. Yet. I Turn Around To Look At The Gate, And Its Right Were I Left It. However Many Walking Bodies Are Now Crossing The Road, Not Even Noticing Us. More Warm Tears On My Neck. I Look at You. Wave At The Spirit As If To Say, Thank You, But I Have to go. I Take Your Hand And Give You A Warm Smile, And Start Walking Towards The Gate. The First Step I take Is Cold. I Get A Chill Down My Spine And It Feels Like The Whole World Is Looking At Me. I Swallow And Continue Walking. Your Behind Me, I Pull you Next To Me So I Don't Lose Sight Of you. I Can't Let You Slip Away. We Walk past Another Body, It Looks At Us And Its Yellow Light Eyes Tell Us To Leave. Eventually We Do. And We Never Look Back.. until she showed up at my bed."


It's just amazing right?
I love him so much.

Holy shit, I'm tired but I can't go to sleep yet. Ughh.
And I miss Nicky.. :c
Anyways, tell me what you think of his story.
I lovee you. <3