Okay, Nicky.. Look.. I'm sorry for last night it was all my fault. I wasn't fucking thinking about anything I said before I said it and because of that we got in a fight last night. That dream I had means nothing to me. I didn't have that dream because I wanted to babe. I understand it made you upset but it didn't happen in real life and it never will. Because I'm only staying with you forever, I don't want to be with anyone else ever.. it just makes me sick thinking about being with someone else.. Last night you said to me "Would a promise even matter if you were going to dump me anyways?" It breaks my heart when you say you think I'm going to break up with you. I mean after everything I've said to you since we've been dating? Everything we've been through? Nicky, I'm not just you're girlfriend anymore.. You have to remember you did ask me to marry you and I remember saying yes, you know why I said yes? Because I love you and you mean everything to me, you're my whole world and you mean even more then that to me.. Without I'm nothing. You're my everything and I love everything about you, ever since the first day I met you. You were an amazing friend, and now look.. I'm engaged to you. (:
Look I love you more then I love anything or anyone else in this whole world.. The love I have for you is stronger then anything in this universe. I wish I could explain my love for you but I can't that's how deep my love is for you.. If I could just prove to you somehow how much I love you.. I wish I could, I really do..
What I'm trying to say is no matter what people say or try to do, or whatever happens to make us fight or weather you think I'm going to break up with you or whatever you're thinking and whatever I'm thinking. Everything will be fine. It always is, you know why everything always works out for us? Because I love you and you love me.. And together we always get through everything that's been going on between us. It's because we really do love eachother. (:
And if we didn't we wouldn't be together and we would have broken up our first fight..
I know we haven't been together long, but it's almost 5 months and I think that's enough for me to realize that you're the one for me. And you're the one I'm spending the rest of my life with. (:
I hope I get to see you today, I would keep writing but the rest I'll say to you when we hang out.
And I have an idea and I'm going to ask my mom if she can take me to the store.
I wanna get you something. :3
So I'll let you sleep and I'll call you later baby.
Just remember that I love you, and I mean it.. It's not just puppy love. It's true love..
I love you, Nicky. I really do and I always will.
Forever&Always. <3
I'm yours. (:
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Yay [:
Okay, so I was excited to wake up this morning so I could write on my Blog pageee. :3 I think this is something I could start doing more. Haha. What do y'all think of my page? Maybe if I love you I might make a post about you. Anyways, I'm thinking about making a post about my best friends and stuff, so I'll keep you posted on that. Tellll mee what y'all think. ♥
Thanks.
I love youuuu. [:
Thanks.
I love youuuu. [:
Sisters, Animals & boyfriends. [:
Okay, so it's 10:54 am and I am so fucking tired. My mom was like screaming at me to wake up this morning, so then I was like "I should probably get up before I get grounded." so then I got up, but now her and my sister Sydney went to the store so now I'm babysitting my littlest sister, Mady. She's three, her birthday is in a couple weeks so wish her a happy birthday! [:
Sydney, the middle child, haha. She has a quite interesting birthday you could say, her birthdays next month.. Okay, so she was born uh, either a week or two early, so she was super tiny.. She was born midnight, on Friday the 13th in October, the month of Halloween as we all know.. Oh and she has red hair, and her favorite movie is Chucky.. Is it just me or do you guys find that kinda scary? Haha. I guess now we know why she's so evil. >.> lol
So as I'm sitting here watching Astro Boy with my sister.. (Ugh, I hate this show.) my dog won't stop barking.. I swear he barks at nothing sometimes. If it's not nothing then it's the birds. He's so stupid. We've had him for awhile now, I believe he's either 7 or 8.. Anyways, we got him when I was a little girl and when he was just a tiny puppy, one of my dads friends gave him to us and ever since then he's been a HUGE pain in the ass, kinda like my boyfriend.. :3 haha, jk. I love you Nicky! Anywho, his name is Bo, btw. He's a black lab and he hates other dogs, lol. Well he hates all other dogs but he gets along with my dog, Maggie. Which I find weird because like he really hates all other dogs.
Anyways, enough about Bo.. How about Maggie? Well Maggie is a dog that we rescued from going to the pound. One day my moms friend was bringing her little girls over so we could babysit them while she took Maggie to the pound.. and when everyone got out of the car my mom saw Maggie jump up on the window and she just couldn't let her take her to the pound. So then Maggie was my early birthday present. [:
She's some kind of mut mix, I think she has a little bit of Beagle in her, but were all not sure what else she has in her. She's also like 13 or 14.. /: so she might not be around much longer but I sure hope, I love that dog. Even if she eats all the cat food, begs at the table and shits on the floor when it's thundering. <3 haha.
Yeah, she's afraid of thunder storms, and she eats all my moms, cats food. I guess that would explain why she so fucking fat, haha. And she HORRIBLE when it comes to someone cooking in the kitchen or someone eating at the table.. You have to yell at her to go lay down like a million times, it's so annoying.
Now our cats! We have three, two are inside and mines the outside cat. Sassy, Dread, and Honey. Honey's my cat, she's a calico cat. I'm guessing she lost her owners in Hurricane Katrina.. /:
She's been in this neighborhood ever since we moved here four years ago. I'm not sure how old she is, but she looks pretty young. But I kinda took her in and now she lives in our treehouse I think, haha. (:
And Sassy, is my moms inside cat, my mom saved Sassy. When she had found her she had been in a trash can, and she was super skinny my mom says she had all kinds of holes in her ears from other cats and bugs, so my mom took her and now if you hear that story then look a Sassy you'd be like "Woah, that's the cat you were talking about, I honestly would have never guessed." haha, and that's because now she's one big fat happy cat, when I say fat I mean really fat.
Oh and my mom found Sassy when she was pregnant with me, and we've had that cat ever since then and now I'm 14 which makes that cat like 16 or 17.
Now Dread, my moms other inside cat. One day my dad and I were in the car, he was taking me to school and he was going to work, we were driving down our dirt road, because I grew up in Texas we had a little bit of land so we had a long dirt road that lead back to my favorite house, but that's a whole other story. Anyways, we were driving and we saw a bunch of kittens in a cat kennel, so we stopped and went back home and my mom fell in love with that one little kitty and decided to keep that little gray kitty cat and we found the rest good homes. [: now all of our kitty's our saved, happy and fat.. <3
And we have a fish and a gerbil, the fishes name is Mrs. Cuddle Fish, and my gerbils name is Bubbles. <3
Okay now that you know about my pets and sisters. What else do you wanna know?
Well, I'll write more about my life and growing up and stuff but for now I'm going to go call my boyfriend so we can hang out. (:
Boy do I love him.
He is the most amazing, most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me!
He's just amazing and awesome and everything I could have asked for, he's more then I could have asked for, and I hope we stay together forever. :3
I have a whole other story to tell you about us and what we've planned! (:
Heheee. :3
Anyways I have lots more blogs coming so give me time to write them when I get the chance and I will keep you updated on all kinds of stuff! <3
Thank you for readinggg.
Leave me a comment if you want, I love readingg comments, haha.
Alrighty, for now I'm off, I'll be back later.
Buhhh bye guys. <3
I love youuuu.
- AudreeySisco. [:
Sydney, the middle child, haha. She has a quite interesting birthday you could say, her birthdays next month.. Okay, so she was born uh, either a week or two early, so she was super tiny.. She was born midnight, on Friday the 13th in October, the month of Halloween as we all know.. Oh and she has red hair, and her favorite movie is Chucky.. Is it just me or do you guys find that kinda scary? Haha. I guess now we know why she's so evil. >.> lol
So as I'm sitting here watching Astro Boy with my sister.. (Ugh, I hate this show.) my dog won't stop barking.. I swear he barks at nothing sometimes. If it's not nothing then it's the birds. He's so stupid. We've had him for awhile now, I believe he's either 7 or 8.. Anyways, we got him when I was a little girl and when he was just a tiny puppy, one of my dads friends gave him to us and ever since then he's been a HUGE pain in the ass, kinda like my boyfriend.. :3 haha, jk. I love you Nicky! Anywho, his name is Bo, btw. He's a black lab and he hates other dogs, lol. Well he hates all other dogs but he gets along with my dog, Maggie. Which I find weird because like he really hates all other dogs.
Anyways, enough about Bo.. How about Maggie? Well Maggie is a dog that we rescued from going to the pound. One day my moms friend was bringing her little girls over so we could babysit them while she took Maggie to the pound.. and when everyone got out of the car my mom saw Maggie jump up on the window and she just couldn't let her take her to the pound. So then Maggie was my early birthday present. [:
She's some kind of mut mix, I think she has a little bit of Beagle in her, but were all not sure what else she has in her. She's also like 13 or 14.. /: so she might not be around much longer but I sure hope, I love that dog. Even if she eats all the cat food, begs at the table and shits on the floor when it's thundering. <3 haha.
Yeah, she's afraid of thunder storms, and she eats all my moms, cats food. I guess that would explain why she so fucking fat, haha. And she HORRIBLE when it comes to someone cooking in the kitchen or someone eating at the table.. You have to yell at her to go lay down like a million times, it's so annoying.
Now our cats! We have three, two are inside and mines the outside cat. Sassy, Dread, and Honey. Honey's my cat, she's a calico cat. I'm guessing she lost her owners in Hurricane Katrina.. /:
She's been in this neighborhood ever since we moved here four years ago. I'm not sure how old she is, but she looks pretty young. But I kinda took her in and now she lives in our treehouse I think, haha. (:
And Sassy, is my moms inside cat, my mom saved Sassy. When she had found her she had been in a trash can, and she was super skinny my mom says she had all kinds of holes in her ears from other cats and bugs, so my mom took her and now if you hear that story then look a Sassy you'd be like "Woah, that's the cat you were talking about, I honestly would have never guessed." haha, and that's because now she's one big fat happy cat, when I say fat I mean really fat.
Oh and my mom found Sassy when she was pregnant with me, and we've had that cat ever since then and now I'm 14 which makes that cat like 16 or 17.
Now Dread, my moms other inside cat. One day my dad and I were in the car, he was taking me to school and he was going to work, we were driving down our dirt road, because I grew up in Texas we had a little bit of land so we had a long dirt road that lead back to my favorite house, but that's a whole other story. Anyways, we were driving and we saw a bunch of kittens in a cat kennel, so we stopped and went back home and my mom fell in love with that one little kitty and decided to keep that little gray kitty cat and we found the rest good homes. [: now all of our kitty's our saved, happy and fat.. <3
And we have a fish and a gerbil, the fishes name is Mrs. Cuddle Fish, and my gerbils name is Bubbles. <3
Okay now that you know about my pets and sisters. What else do you wanna know?
Well, I'll write more about my life and growing up and stuff but for now I'm going to go call my boyfriend so we can hang out. (:
Boy do I love him.
He is the most amazing, most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me!
He's just amazing and awesome and everything I could have asked for, he's more then I could have asked for, and I hope we stay together forever. :3
I have a whole other story to tell you about us and what we've planned! (:
Heheee. :3
Anyways I have lots more blogs coming so give me time to write them when I get the chance and I will keep you updated on all kinds of stuff! <3
Thank you for readinggg.
Leave me a comment if you want, I love readingg comments, haha.
Alrighty, for now I'm off, I'll be back later.
Buhhh bye guys. <3
I love youuuu.
- AudreeySisco. [:
Friday, September 3, 2010
Darkness.
So I was just looking at some old stuff in one of my folders here on my laptop and I found the amazing story my boyfriend wrote me, it's actually really amazing. He is such a good writer, I wish he'd think so, but anyways I thought you might like to read it so here it is. [:
Enjoy! <3
Before you read it though, this is a dream he had about us walking in the cemetery at midnight. And he says it was a cool, descriptive dream so he decided to put it in Words for you guys.
Okay, now enjoy!
Tell me what you think, pleaseee. [:
"Darkness (A Story Based On A Dream)
By: Nicky Awesome Sisco.
The Cold Midnight Air Whistled Against the Old Yellow Buildings Peeling Coat Of Paint, The Howls Of Cold Hungry Dogs That Were Left Outside For The Night Are Heard. The Only Things That Are Silent Are Us, We Hold Our Breath. Should We Go in? I Take A Chance And Kneel Down To Get Through The Large Hole In The Gate. I Look Back As You Stand, Timidly Staring At The Moon, The Stars, And All Beautiful Things. They Reflect Into Your Eyes And Your Godess Like Loveliness Shows. You Blink And Look At Me. I Hold Out My Hand, And Slowly Your Shivering Palm Takes Mine. You Get Down And Go Through The Gate. Were In This Together now. We Stand Up Together And I let Go Of Your Hand To Walk, However Your Grasp Is Steady. I look Back And You Still Haven't Moved.
The Wind Now Wisping your Hair. I Try And Ease You Into The Yard Of Worthless Bones And Coffins. You Give Me A Trusting Look, And You Ask If I'm Sure Its Safe To Walk In A Graveyard At Night. I Just Give You A Warm Smile And Pull You Closer To Me. Once Again The Nights Sky Gives Us Warnings And Blows A Final Wind Upon The Grave House We Stand Near, It Whistles And A Cat Yells, It Darts Out From Under The House Along With Another. They Run Of Into the Distance And There Cries Of Battle Fade. I Continue To Walk With You By My Side. I'm Not Scared, I'm not Scared, I'm not Scared... Im Horrified.
We Pass The Old Grave House And To The Main Road Of The Cemetery. The Road Goes on in Foor Directions, Crossing In The Middle Were We Stand. You Ask If We Can Leave, You Don't Like It. We Both Feel Something. The Feeling That Something Is About To happen, And that Something Already Knows Were Here. Its Just Waiting. And Slowly Creeping Towards Us. Then As If Everything Stopped Making Noise, Everything Stopped Except For A Slow Droning Hum. A Lady then Emerges From The Farrest Corner Of the Yard, She Is Far Away, but We Both See Her, She Stops In The Middle Of the Road About Ten Feet Away. Looking At The Ground. Shes Carrying A Small Child, She Then Turns Her Head Towards Us. You Want To Run, So Do I. At this Point, That Could Only Make This Worse. The Ladies Eyes Are Closed. When She Opens Them unsead Of Eyes, Dull Lights Shine At Us. You Gasp And Grab My Arm.
The Lady Approaches Us. She Is Only Wearing Rags. Torn up Old Rags. And her Hair Is Un Brushed And Black As Night. Her Skin Has A Worm On It. And In Parts You Can See Her Dried Up Old Bone. The Ladies Arms Were Torn Up As If She Was Whipped And A Large Bloody Gash Was In One Side Of her Upper Leg. You Stand Behind Me, And A Warm Feeling Is On My Neck. A Tear, Another Is Felt Shortly After. Your Sure Were not Going To See The Sun, And Im Sure That This Lady Wont Either, And She Hasn't.. For Years.
The Lady Blinks And Looks Down At Me. And Nods. As If To Say. It Is Not Our Time Yet.. Yet. I Turn Around To Look At The Gate, And Its Right Were I Left It. However Many Walking Bodies Are Now Crossing The Road, Not Even Noticing Us. More Warm Tears On My Neck. I Look at You. Wave At The Spirit As If To Say, Thank You, But I Have to go. I Take Your Hand And Give You A Warm Smile, And Start Walking Towards The Gate. The First Step I take Is Cold. I Get A Chill Down My Spine And It Feels Like The Whole World Is Looking At Me. I Swallow And Continue Walking. Your Behind Me, I Pull you Next To Me So I Don't Lose Sight Of you. I Can't Let You Slip Away. We Walk past Another Body, It Looks At Us And Its Yellow Light Eyes Tell Us To Leave. Eventually We Do. And We Never Look Back.. until she showed up at my bed."
It's just amazing right?
I love him so much.
Holy shit, I'm tired but I can't go to sleep yet. Ughh.
And I miss Nicky.. :c
Anyways, tell me what you think of his story.
I lovee you. <3
Enjoy! <3
Before you read it though, this is a dream he had about us walking in the cemetery at midnight. And he says it was a cool, descriptive dream so he decided to put it in Words for you guys.
Okay, now enjoy!
Tell me what you think, pleaseee. [:
"Darkness (A Story Based On A Dream)
By: Nicky Awesome Sisco.
The Cold Midnight Air Whistled Against the Old Yellow Buildings Peeling Coat Of Paint, The Howls Of Cold Hungry Dogs That Were Left Outside For The Night Are Heard. The Only Things That Are Silent Are Us, We Hold Our Breath. Should We Go in? I Take A Chance And Kneel Down To Get Through The Large Hole In The Gate. I Look Back As You Stand, Timidly Staring At The Moon, The Stars, And All Beautiful Things. They Reflect Into Your Eyes And Your Godess Like Loveliness Shows. You Blink And Look At Me. I Hold Out My Hand, And Slowly Your Shivering Palm Takes Mine. You Get Down And Go Through The Gate. Were In This Together now. We Stand Up Together And I let Go Of Your Hand To Walk, However Your Grasp Is Steady. I look Back And You Still Haven't Moved.
The Wind Now Wisping your Hair. I Try And Ease You Into The Yard Of Worthless Bones And Coffins. You Give Me A Trusting Look, And You Ask If I'm Sure Its Safe To Walk In A Graveyard At Night. I Just Give You A Warm Smile And Pull You Closer To Me. Once Again The Nights Sky Gives Us Warnings And Blows A Final Wind Upon The Grave House We Stand Near, It Whistles And A Cat Yells, It Darts Out From Under The House Along With Another. They Run Of Into the Distance And There Cries Of Battle Fade. I Continue To Walk With You By My Side. I'm Not Scared, I'm not Scared, I'm not Scared... Im Horrified.
We Pass The Old Grave House And To The Main Road Of The Cemetery. The Road Goes on in Foor Directions, Crossing In The Middle Were We Stand. You Ask If We Can Leave, You Don't Like It. We Both Feel Something. The Feeling That Something Is About To happen, And that Something Already Knows Were Here. Its Just Waiting. And Slowly Creeping Towards Us. Then As If Everything Stopped Making Noise, Everything Stopped Except For A Slow Droning Hum. A Lady then Emerges From The Farrest Corner Of the Yard, She Is Far Away, but We Both See Her, She Stops In The Middle Of the Road About Ten Feet Away. Looking At The Ground. Shes Carrying A Small Child, She Then Turns Her Head Towards Us. You Want To Run, So Do I. At this Point, That Could Only Make This Worse. The Ladies Eyes Are Closed. When She Opens Them unsead Of Eyes, Dull Lights Shine At Us. You Gasp And Grab My Arm.
The Lady Approaches Us. She Is Only Wearing Rags. Torn up Old Rags. And her Hair Is Un Brushed And Black As Night. Her Skin Has A Worm On It. And In Parts You Can See Her Dried Up Old Bone. The Ladies Arms Were Torn Up As If She Was Whipped And A Large Bloody Gash Was In One Side Of her Upper Leg. You Stand Behind Me, And A Warm Feeling Is On My Neck. A Tear, Another Is Felt Shortly After. Your Sure Were not Going To See The Sun, And Im Sure That This Lady Wont Either, And She Hasn't.. For Years.
The Lady Blinks And Looks Down At Me. And Nods. As If To Say. It Is Not Our Time Yet.. Yet. I Turn Around To Look At The Gate, And Its Right Were I Left It. However Many Walking Bodies Are Now Crossing The Road, Not Even Noticing Us. More Warm Tears On My Neck. I Look at You. Wave At The Spirit As If To Say, Thank You, But I Have to go. I Take Your Hand And Give You A Warm Smile, And Start Walking Towards The Gate. The First Step I take Is Cold. I Get A Chill Down My Spine And It Feels Like The Whole World Is Looking At Me. I Swallow And Continue Walking. Your Behind Me, I Pull you Next To Me So I Don't Lose Sight Of you. I Can't Let You Slip Away. We Walk past Another Body, It Looks At Us And Its Yellow Light Eyes Tell Us To Leave. Eventually We Do. And We Never Look Back.. until she showed up at my bed."
It's just amazing right?
I love him so much.
Holy shit, I'm tired but I can't go to sleep yet. Ughh.
And I miss Nicky.. :c
Anyways, tell me what you think of his story.
I lovee you. <3
Love Quotes.
Okaay, these's are just a few quotes I like a lot, so I thought I'd share them with you guys.
-I didn't write these's, some of them though I mixed up and made them my own.-
Some of these's explain how I feel now, how I used to feel, and how I never want to feel again.
Tell me which are you're favorites. <3 Here's the link I get all of them from. --> " http://www.lovefatedestiny.com/ "
Anyways, I think I might go to bed, night. <3
My heart longs for you,
my soul dies for you,
my eyes cry for you,
my empty arms reach out for you.
Love can make you happy but often times it hurts,
but love is only special when you give it to who its worth.
Boyfriends come and go, but friends are forever.
The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go, and knowing when to say goodbye.
No pleassure, no expressions just an illusion of what should of but wasnt.
I hate you for not letting me have you.
Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made you cry, Forget the times he spoke your name, Remember now your not the same. Forget the times he held your hand, Forget the sweet things if you can, Forget the times & Don't pretend, just remember the pain he put you through and tell yourself you don't need him anymore..
The day you finally decide to love me will be the day after the day I have given up on chasing you.
I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody but I surely hate it more to see the one I love unhappy with me...
I had a dream and it was about you ... I smiled and recalled the memories we had ... then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ... you know why? "cause in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye ...
Time will make you forget me but time will make me love you more than before.
If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you, but I did, I do and I will.
Forget who hurt you yesterday, But don't forget who loves you tenderly today.
No Guy Is Worth Your Tears & When You Find The One That Is He Won't Make You Cry.
If You Really Love Something Set It Free. If It Comes Back It's Yours, If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be.
Don't Cry Over Someone That Won't Cry Over You.
I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy,I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry,I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me. I’m going to smile.
The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
The hottest love has the coldest end.
Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.
For few love can last a lifetime, but for many not knowing when to let go can hold them back forever.
If this is goodbye, don't come back. If this is the end, don't wake me up.
You broke me, you broke my heart, you broke everything! You turned my world upside down and inside out, but I know it was worth it for that one moment of love we had, it's a shame it went bad..
You walk by me everyday and say hello.
Everyday you take time out to listen to me.
You talk to me, smile at me, laugh with me, and have fun with me.
Well, I talk, smile and laugh too, but inside I'm hurting.
Deep down it hurts to be with you because I love you and you are only a friend.
One day you'll ask me, "which is more important to you, me or your life"
I'll say, "My life" and you'll go and leave me with out knowing that you are my life...
It takes a couple seconds to say Hello,
but forever to say Goodbye.
I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was..
Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.
Never say 'I like you' if you don't care.
Never talk about feelings if they're not there.
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.
Love is hard work; and hard work sometimes hurts.
When you break up, your whole identity is shattered.
It's like death.
No matter who broke your heart,or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends.
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
Relationships are like glass.
Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.
Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there.
Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.
God is closest to those with broken hearts.
Love is like a puzzle.
When you're in love, all the pieces fit but when your heart gets broken,
it takes a while to get everything back together.
They say, 'Time heals all wounds.
'If that is true, then I guess mine go deeper than pain.
There are no words to choose over losing you.
I guess I found out too late, and now all I feel is a heart break that only hurts when I breathe.
And maybe this will end tomorrow, two weeks or four months or maybe even 2 years from now but no matter when it ends I'll never regret any of it..
Sadness flies away on the wings of time.
Someone can walk into your life and it is not until after they walk out that you realize that they meant more to you then you thought they did.
Love can tear you apart.. it can kill you.
But if you’re lucky, it can put you back together.
I hate you...and then I love you... it's like I want to throw you off a cliff... then rush to the bottom to catch you.
It hurts the most when you can actually feel your heart breaking.
You love to hate the one who loves the one you hate to love.
The ones that you love the most are usually the ones that hurt you the most.
A hundred hearts would be too few, to carry all my love for you.
The most important things are the hardest to say, because words diminish them.
Memories are the best souvenirs.
Giving Up On Love Isn't Moving On Its Giving Up Your Happiness.
If your love does not work with that person, it just means that someone else loves you more.
I don't know what to do now that we're apart;
I don't know how to live without the other half of my heart.
Now that I have loved so purely and deeply, I have realized how lonely I really am.
There is nothing sadder in this life than to watch someone you love walk away after all the great times you've spent together and all those's memories and thoughts share with one another.
To watch the distance between your two bodies expand until there is nothing left but empty space... and silence.
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if I wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.
Relationships are like crystals, you don't realize how much you love it until it breaks.
Sometimes I wish I had never met you because then I could go to bed at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.
A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding..
Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling..
And the most painful thing is, no one hears it, except you..
Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you and you know you can't have them, but it's worse when you thought you didn't want them anymore and then all of a sudden you realize you can't live without them.
It is now one of my biggest regrets in this life: not to have seen the extent of your love for me.
Maybe if I had just looked away that first night you came towards me, everything would be different and my heart wouldn't be breaking right now.
Breaking up is just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream.
He taught me how to love, but not how to stop.
You were the one that could alway make me smile.
You were the one that could always make me laugh.
You were the one who could always tell when I was mad or sad.
You were the one who always knew what I was thinking just by looking in my eyes.
You were the one I always trusted.
You were the one that told me you never wanted to lose me.
You were the one that let me down..
You were the one that broke a big promise to me..
You were the one I never thought would do that..
You were the one who broke my heart..
You were the one and only one I never wanted to say goodbye to forever..
I guess you were just like every one else..
You were the one that killed me..
And watching you walk away.. was the hardest thing in my life..
Now I lay here, dead.. all because of I thought you were the one.
Guess not.
The one who broke you, is the only one who can fix you.
I cry for the time that you were almost mine,
I cry for the memories I've left behind,
I cry for the pain, the lost, the old, the new,
I cry for the times I thought I had you..
But lost you.
When something's over, it's over.
It can never start again.
When it's broken you can never put back the pieces.
Life is not the way you want it to be.
When that someones hurting you so much, just stop.
We know that it hurts a lot, but you must learn to let go of things.
Don't push yourself too hard.
'cause we all know, that in every hello, theres a goodbye.
It only hurts worse when you start pretending it doesn't..
I wanna die.
I wanna bleed.
I wanna cry,
but all I can do is just keep walking with a smile on my face and pretend the scars aren't really there..
No one knows how it is that with one glance, a boy can break through into a girls heart.
Sometimes all you can do is smile.
Move on with your day.
Hold back the tears and pretend you're okay.
It's quite ironic that in life, the person that brings out the best in you and the one that makes you strong is actually your weakness..
I wrote this love note with my own blood so you know it came straight from my heart.
Not all scars show,
Not all wounds heal,
Sometimes you can't see the pain someone feels.
I'm holding onto something, hoping it will come back, but knowing it won't.
I was waiting for you last night under a broken street light at least that light will be fixed.. unlike my heart.
One light, one mind. Flashing in the dark. Blinded by the silence of a thousand broken hearts.
Sometimes if you love someone so much, it will actually hurt more.
Every minute spent with him comes with an hour of missing him.
Just when you thought everything would be perfect, everything falls apart.
I need guidance to get through the day and a blade to get through the night.
When you put that ring on my finger, you put a chain of death around my heart.
It's amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces.
Sometimes, fate has a cruel way of putting things together.
Maybe it's better if people just give up when there's no point in fighting for something anymore.
When the ship has finally sailed, only a fool would go after when it's already miles away.
But sometimes, it's a lot better to be a fool to go after what we want and need, rather than to regret everything in the end because we never even tried.
The pain you have caused will never go away ... it has dug a hole in my heart.
And my heart will never be the same.
I'm gonna draw a picture, a picture with a twist.
I'll draw it with a razor blade, I'll draw it on my wrist.
It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance.
It is the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance.
It is the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give.
And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live.
It really changed my life. When we split up, something changed, permanently, in me.
My heart sort of broke that day, and it will never be the same.
You don't die of a broken heart, you only wish you did.
I was born when you kissed me.
I lived a few weeks while you loved me.
I died when you left me.
You know the feeling when the world collapses and the heart explodes.
As my legs start to shake, I feel nothing I wanted you, I needed you.. but you weren't there this time.
The bright light beams from her eyes.
From broken glass
Or a broken heart.
It was all so beautiful.
It was all so bright and true.
My eyes staring at you.
Watching it all go wrong.
He left me here.. in this misery.. the whole world has turned it's back on me.
It was all the things you said to me,
All the lies you made me believe
There is no time to be sorry..
This pain has been lost in the depth of me..
-I didn't write these's, some of them though I mixed up and made them my own.-
Some of these's explain how I feel now, how I used to feel, and how I never want to feel again.
Tell me which are you're favorites. <3 Here's the link I get all of them from. --> " http://www.lovefatedestiny.com/ "
Anyways, I think I might go to bed, night. <3
My heart longs for you,
my soul dies for you,
my eyes cry for you,
my empty arms reach out for you.
Love can make you happy but often times it hurts,
but love is only special when you give it to who its worth.
Boyfriends come and go, but friends are forever.
The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go, and knowing when to say goodbye.
No pleassure, no expressions just an illusion of what should of but wasnt.
I hate you for not letting me have you.
Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made you cry, Forget the times he spoke your name, Remember now your not the same. Forget the times he held your hand, Forget the sweet things if you can, Forget the times & Don't pretend, just remember the pain he put you through and tell yourself you don't need him anymore..
The day you finally decide to love me will be the day after the day I have given up on chasing you.
I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody but I surely hate it more to see the one I love unhappy with me...
I had a dream and it was about you ... I smiled and recalled the memories we had ... then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ... you know why? "cause in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye ...
Time will make you forget me but time will make me love you more than before.
If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you, but I did, I do and I will.
Forget who hurt you yesterday, But don't forget who loves you tenderly today.
No Guy Is Worth Your Tears & When You Find The One That Is He Won't Make You Cry.
If You Really Love Something Set It Free. If It Comes Back It's Yours, If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be.
Don't Cry Over Someone That Won't Cry Over You.
I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy,I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry,I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me. I’m going to smile.
The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
The hottest love has the coldest end.
Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.
For few love can last a lifetime, but for many not knowing when to let go can hold them back forever.
If this is goodbye, don't come back. If this is the end, don't wake me up.
You broke me, you broke my heart, you broke everything! You turned my world upside down and inside out, but I know it was worth it for that one moment of love we had, it's a shame it went bad..
You walk by me everyday and say hello.
Everyday you take time out to listen to me.
You talk to me, smile at me, laugh with me, and have fun with me.
Well, I talk, smile and laugh too, but inside I'm hurting.
Deep down it hurts to be with you because I love you and you are only a friend.
One day you'll ask me, "which is more important to you, me or your life"
I'll say, "My life" and you'll go and leave me with out knowing that you are my life...
It takes a couple seconds to say Hello,
but forever to say Goodbye.
I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was..
Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.
Never say 'I like you' if you don't care.
Never talk about feelings if they're not there.
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.
Love is hard work; and hard work sometimes hurts.
When you break up, your whole identity is shattered.
It's like death.
No matter who broke your heart,or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends.
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
Relationships are like glass.
Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.
Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there.
Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.
God is closest to those with broken hearts.
Love is like a puzzle.
When you're in love, all the pieces fit but when your heart gets broken,
it takes a while to get everything back together.
They say, 'Time heals all wounds.
'If that is true, then I guess mine go deeper than pain.
There are no words to choose over losing you.
I guess I found out too late, and now all I feel is a heart break that only hurts when I breathe.
And maybe this will end tomorrow, two weeks or four months or maybe even 2 years from now but no matter when it ends I'll never regret any of it..
Sadness flies away on the wings of time.
Someone can walk into your life and it is not until after they walk out that you realize that they meant more to you then you thought they did.
Love can tear you apart.. it can kill you.
But if you’re lucky, it can put you back together.
I hate you...and then I love you... it's like I want to throw you off a cliff... then rush to the bottom to catch you.
It hurts the most when you can actually feel your heart breaking.
You love to hate the one who loves the one you hate to love.
The ones that you love the most are usually the ones that hurt you the most.
A hundred hearts would be too few, to carry all my love for you.
The most important things are the hardest to say, because words diminish them.
Memories are the best souvenirs.
Giving Up On Love Isn't Moving On Its Giving Up Your Happiness.
If your love does not work with that person, it just means that someone else loves you more.
I don't know what to do now that we're apart;
I don't know how to live without the other half of my heart.
Now that I have loved so purely and deeply, I have realized how lonely I really am.
There is nothing sadder in this life than to watch someone you love walk away after all the great times you've spent together and all those's memories and thoughts share with one another.
To watch the distance between your two bodies expand until there is nothing left but empty space... and silence.
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if I wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.
Relationships are like crystals, you don't realize how much you love it until it breaks.
Sometimes I wish I had never met you because then I could go to bed at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.
A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding..
Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling..
And the most painful thing is, no one hears it, except you..
Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when they are right next to you and you know you can't have them, but it's worse when you thought you didn't want them anymore and then all of a sudden you realize you can't live without them.
It is now one of my biggest regrets in this life: not to have seen the extent of your love for me.
Maybe if I had just looked away that first night you came towards me, everything would be different and my heart wouldn't be breaking right now.
Breaking up is just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream.
He taught me how to love, but not how to stop.
You were the one that could alway make me smile.
You were the one that could always make me laugh.
You were the one who could always tell when I was mad or sad.
You were the one who always knew what I was thinking just by looking in my eyes.
You were the one I always trusted.
You were the one that told me you never wanted to lose me.
You were the one that let me down..
You were the one that broke a big promise to me..
You were the one I never thought would do that..
You were the one who broke my heart..
You were the one and only one I never wanted to say goodbye to forever..
I guess you were just like every one else..
You were the one that killed me..
And watching you walk away.. was the hardest thing in my life..
Now I lay here, dead.. all because of I thought you were the one.
Guess not.
The one who broke you, is the only one who can fix you.
I cry for the time that you were almost mine,
I cry for the memories I've left behind,
I cry for the pain, the lost, the old, the new,
I cry for the times I thought I had you..
But lost you.
When something's over, it's over.
It can never start again.
When it's broken you can never put back the pieces.
Life is not the way you want it to be.
When that someones hurting you so much, just stop.
We know that it hurts a lot, but you must learn to let go of things.
Don't push yourself too hard.
'cause we all know, that in every hello, theres a goodbye.
It only hurts worse when you start pretending it doesn't..
I wanna die.
I wanna bleed.
I wanna cry,
but all I can do is just keep walking with a smile on my face and pretend the scars aren't really there..
No one knows how it is that with one glance, a boy can break through into a girls heart.
Sometimes all you can do is smile.
Move on with your day.
Hold back the tears and pretend you're okay.
It's quite ironic that in life, the person that brings out the best in you and the one that makes you strong is actually your weakness..
I wrote this love note with my own blood so you know it came straight from my heart.
Not all scars show,
Not all wounds heal,
Sometimes you can't see the pain someone feels.
I'm holding onto something, hoping it will come back, but knowing it won't.
I was waiting for you last night under a broken street light at least that light will be fixed.. unlike my heart.
One light, one mind. Flashing in the dark. Blinded by the silence of a thousand broken hearts.
Sometimes if you love someone so much, it will actually hurt more.
Every minute spent with him comes with an hour of missing him.
Just when you thought everything would be perfect, everything falls apart.
I need guidance to get through the day and a blade to get through the night.
When you put that ring on my finger, you put a chain of death around my heart.
It's amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces.
Sometimes, fate has a cruel way of putting things together.
Maybe it's better if people just give up when there's no point in fighting for something anymore.
When the ship has finally sailed, only a fool would go after when it's already miles away.
But sometimes, it's a lot better to be a fool to go after what we want and need, rather than to regret everything in the end because we never even tried.
The pain you have caused will never go away ... it has dug a hole in my heart.
And my heart will never be the same.
I'm gonna draw a picture, a picture with a twist.
I'll draw it with a razor blade, I'll draw it on my wrist.
It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance.
It is the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance.
It is the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give.
And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live.
It really changed my life. When we split up, something changed, permanently, in me.
My heart sort of broke that day, and it will never be the same.
You don't die of a broken heart, you only wish you did.
I was born when you kissed me.
I lived a few weeks while you loved me.
I died when you left me.
You know the feeling when the world collapses and the heart explodes.
As my legs start to shake, I feel nothing I wanted you, I needed you.. but you weren't there this time.
The bright light beams from her eyes.
From broken glass
Or a broken heart.
It was all so beautiful.
It was all so bright and true.
My eyes staring at you.
Watching it all go wrong.
He left me here.. in this misery.. the whole world has turned it's back on me.
It was all the things you said to me,
All the lies you made me believe
There is no time to be sorry..
This pain has been lost in the depth of me..
So I decided to keep it after all. (:
Okay, so I'm back, I guess for now. Awesome -aka, Nicky. (my boyfriend) wants me to keep posting things up here, so I guess I will try and keep you guys updated if I have the time to, but for right now not much has been up lately. Well, that's a lie, Nicky came over today, again. :3
And Camp Rock 2 come on Disney Channel today! I have been waiting for that movie to come out ever since I saw the first one. (don't judge me.) Anyways, so me and Nicky cuddled up and watched that together, haha. (:
That was fun, today was actually pretty fun.
Dammmmn I love him. <3
Uh, anyways back on track here Audrey.
Uhhh, what else? Ummm, well I am now obsessed with Lost thanks to Nicky.. I think I might go watch some now.. 0:
Oh and speaking of obsessing, I am fucking obsessed with fucking Silly Bands, dude.
I now have like over 300. :3 <3
Haha, Nicky hates them but I dun care, he'll get over it. Hehe. :3
I love you babe!
Anywho, I think I might be going to the movies with him tomorroww, what movie should we see? Scott Pilgrim vs. The World maybe? Haha, depends.
Woah, I'm tired and it's only 12:13. Wtf?
You know what sucks?
Having to take pills because you can't sleep at night.. yeah I have to take pills because I have Insomnia, which is a sleeping disorder if you're wondering, it sucks balls.
My pills are starting to kick in which means I'm probably going to pass out soon, haha.
Well, I'll try and keep you posted as much as I can, I'm going to bed now, it's 1:44.
Night. <3
I lovee you.
And Camp Rock 2 come on Disney Channel today! I have been waiting for that movie to come out ever since I saw the first one. (don't judge me.) Anyways, so me and Nicky cuddled up and watched that together, haha. (:
That was fun, today was actually pretty fun.
Dammmmn I love him. <3
Uh, anyways back on track here Audrey.
Uhhh, what else? Ummm, well I am now obsessed with Lost thanks to Nicky.. I think I might go watch some now.. 0:
Oh and speaking of obsessing, I am fucking obsessed with fucking Silly Bands, dude.
I now have like over 300. :3 <3
Haha, Nicky hates them but I dun care, he'll get over it. Hehe. :3
I love you babe!
Anywho, I think I might be going to the movies with him tomorroww, what movie should we see? Scott Pilgrim vs. The World maybe? Haha, depends.
Woah, I'm tired and it's only 12:13. Wtf?
You know what sucks?
Having to take pills because you can't sleep at night.. yeah I have to take pills because I have Insomnia, which is a sleeping disorder if you're wondering, it sucks balls.
My pills are starting to kick in which means I'm probably going to pass out soon, haha.
Well, I'll try and keep you posted as much as I can, I'm going to bed now, it's 1:44.
Night. <3
I lovee you.
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